Fact.
I started this Tumblr because I wanted a place where I could be honest, a place where I could say what was on my mind without feeling judged, a place where I didn’t need to sensor myself. I can’t do any of those things here, even though I should be able to, because I’m constantly worrying about what certain people will think of my thoughts & my feelings & I hate feeling like someone is reading whatever I post & judging me. There are only a handful of people who follow me who I actually know…& you know what? Most of you are the fucking reason that I have to sensor myself. Because I’m so goddam worried about what you think of me & if you’ll go gossip about it later. & the truly tragic thing about that is that you’re not even really physically in my life. The one person I don’t need to worry about is the one person who has stuck around for the last 5 fucking years, I can tell her anything & there is never any moment when I feel like she’s judging me or thinking less of me.
But anyways, I started a new blog because I wanted a place to post things I wasn’t comfortable posting on here…I think its pretty much going to be my main blog now. I don’t want those certain people being apart of my life anymore, not even just on a stupid blog. You can’t fuck me up & still get a glimpse into the person I am, or the person I am becoming or the things I’m going through.
